Tuesday, October 2, 2012

LIfe update

Whew! Where has the time gone? I feel that I am busier since my husband has returned than when he was gone. How crazy is that?

Well, he is a little update on what is going on in our neck of the woods.

About 3 weeks ago our cars got broken into. They took my ipod, my GPS and change. They got my husband's change and his wallet. To say the least, who ever did it better hope we don't find them. It has been a royal pain in the a$$ to get all of the stuff in his wallet replaced. Grrrrr!!!! That caused him to have to rearrange some things and other things that needed to get done, didn't. It's just frustrating. Not to mention, every time I get in my car and see the empty place where my GPS was, it pisses me off! How dare someone take something that isn't theirs!!! Didn't their parents teach them better? It also makes me feel a little vulnerable. I mean, our cars were sitting outside of our house, in OUR driveway and someone did this! Just makes me sick to think of it.

The following week my husband and I hit, let's call it a ditch, in our marriage. (I can't call it a bump because at the time, it felt like the world was ending and nothing would be right again.) We have since talked and worked everything out, but some of the things he said to me that day, I think will always be in the back of my mind. I don't think I can ever forget what he said, or how it felt. I honestly was afraid he was leaving me. Thankfully we are still together, happy and still in love. But it was a rough day for me. But stemming from that day.....I decided to call Military OneSource and get a referral for some therapy. I know things are not right with me, I know it and it needs to be fixed. I just don't think I can fix it on my own. I need some guidance. Through Military One Source you are given 12 visits for free. I think that's a pretty darn good deal. They also refer you to someone who is near your home.
I met with my therapist this past Friday for the first time. I'm not too sure if I like her. She wasn't very warm and inviting, it was very hard to read what she was thinking and she seemed like she was distracted. I will try a few more times and see if it works, if not I will find someone else if needed. She did say one thing to me that took me by surprise. She thinks I might be depressed. I had never thought of it that way. Stressed....yes....unable to relax....yes....but depressed....I wouldn't have thought of it. So we will be working on that too. It is important for me, for my kids and for my marriage for me to be mentally healthy and happy.

New subject. :) We still haven't heard from M's parents. He's been home about 2 months now and not a peep from them. If they think we are coming back to apologize when we did nothing wrong....they are sadly mistaken.

Work is crazy. They have dumped a ton of failing kids into my intervention class. It is a paperwork nightmare. The sad thing is I can't really tell where kids are because the other teachers are taking FOREVER to grade the papers and enter them into the gradebook. It is driving me crazy, but I really don't want to be the crazy, bit#%y one who hounds them day and night. But they sure aren't making my job any easier.

Next, I just need to learn how to relax. I am open to suggestions.

Baby E......ohhhh the light of our lives. She is such a happy baby with such a big personality!!!! She is crawling EVERY where and getting into EVERYTHING! She has started to pull herself up on the furniture and with assistance, she is taking a few shaky steps. I am afraid we will have a walker on our hands!!!! I'm not sure what our house will look like with two kids walking, but I'm sure it will be interesting.

Little L is quite the little boy. He is loving having daddy home and LOVES going to preschool. He is talking up a storm and his speech has improved a TON. I am so proud of him. He will tell me his ABCs daily, count to 20, and read Brown Bear, Brown Bear to anyone who will listen. It's so great to see him soak up so much knowledge and enjoy it!

Oh! We also had a great visit from our Army friends! Oh it was soo nice spending time with my best Army Wife friend. I wish they still lived down here, but alas they moved. :( We were able to go out to lunch, just us girls and spent about 3 hours talking, laughing and crying at Olive Garden. Then we had a double date night, which was a lot of fun and were able to see them for dinner one more time before they headed home. It was such a great visit, I hope they come back soon!

Well, work and kids and everything else is calling my name. Back to reality.


  1. We had so much fun with you guys. Nick keeps talking about when we will be able to get together next. Little L sure is speaking clearly now! And Miss E is such a sweetie! Thanks again for being such a great friend! (i need an olive garden date again though!)

  2. Oh Kathryn! Please text me anytime. I can so relate to the things you wrote. Might write you an email a little later on. I'm having a hard time relaxing too. I always thought, "Oh I'll just pop a bottle of wine at the end of the day and zzzzzz..." But it has not been like that. At. All. There always seems to be one more thing on my mental checklist to get done. There is never time for just relaxing. But I know it's important and I need to do it. Let's relax together, shall we? :)

  3. I am so happy that you called Military One Source, they are amazing!!!

  4. I am glad you started counseling. My husband and I hit a... "ditch" a couple years ago. The counseling helped us make it through.

  5. Girlfriend! I'm glad to get an update on your life. Sucks it wasn't all roses and pretty things.. BUT, that's life isn't it? Please know that if you ever need anything I am here!! While I may not always be able to relate.. I do know what it is like to feel so loaded down it's almost unbearable.

    Stay strong and positive girl. You've got this... and you've already showed how strong you are with the deployment!

  6. I'm sorry your cars were broken into. :(

    I hope therapy helps. I think it's wonderful that Military One Source helps out like that.


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