First off I want to start off by thanking everyone who sent supportive messages and texts. It really means the world to me. As of right now we are in a somewhat good place. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I do know I won't go down without a fight. I just have to decide where that line is and how much I am willing to deal with. I just miss my husband and the life we had before the deployment and PTSD.
Thursday was take your child to work day. I decided to bring Booger with me to work. Let me tell you, he NEVER. STOPPED. TALKING! The students all thought he was super cute and he ate up the attention, but I don't think he stopped once.
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| At work with mommy! |
This weekend we spent literally at home, all weekend. It was a nice change. M blew up the little pool and the kids had a blast playing in it and riding Booger's John Deer Tractor all over the yard. He rode it so much over the weekend, that by Sunday night the battery was dead. It was very relaxing. M got the yard mowed, some other things organized and played with the kids. I was able to take a nap to get rid of my headache on Saturday.
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| Playing outside on Saturday |
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| In the pool again on Sunday |
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| Booger cleaning his John Deer Tractor |
Saturday night we had a small hiccup, but by Sunday everything seemed to be ok. I'm sure he wanted everything to go back to the way things were, and so do I. However, I noticed I was being quite distant this weekend. I'm having a harder time getting over the comments he makes, even after he says he's sorry. I want things to go back to "normal", but I'm also afraid that if I keep letting everything go, nothing will ever change. I think he needs to know how much he has hurt me, especially recently.
Sunday was more of the same. Playing outside and enjoying the nice weather. M got a few more things done around the house. Then gave the kids a bath last night. It's really nice to have help with bath time.
Anywho. I'm glad to be back to work and able to focus on my students and getting the school year wrapped up. I think we are down to about 23 days of school left. It's hard to believe.
Last Monday I started off with a plank-a-day and a wall-sit-a-day and did pretty good, until my world feel down on Friday. Let's hope I can get back on the band wagon. :)
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| Monday Start times |
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| Thursday times |
So here's to another week. Let's hope this week is better than the last. :) I hope you all have a great Monday!!!!
You seriously are improving fast with your wall sits and planks! I find the best thing is to find a distraction. I start the timer and then get on IG or pinterest or something equally mind-numbing. Then when I start feeling shaky, I switch back over to the timer, but tell myself I'll stick it out for 30 more seconds first. Not that I am some super-planker, but I feel like that might be helpful. LOL
ReplyDeleteYup, we stayed outside most of the weekend as well. I'm loving the nice weather.
ReplyDeleteIt looks like your time outside was nice. Happy Monday.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing awesome! :) Nothing better than spending time outside.
ReplyDeleteWhile I am glad you are in a good place... I am still sending you tons of well wishes chick! Yo1u deserve the world. Glad you guys got to enjoy some outside time!
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