When the deployment bomb was dropped on us I was pretty firm on not wanting to go through all of that on my own. I wanted him to be a part of it, like he was with Little L. If you've read past posts you know that it didn't happen that way.
Once the shock of the upcoming deployment wore off, we discussed everything. We did the math on if we waited for him to come back and to us it was just too big of a gap between the kids. Plus we weren't sure how long it would take for us to get pregnant, what with the other one ending in a miscarriage. So, we decided to do the whole we aren't trying but we aren't stopping it either. We figured if it happened and it stuck, then it was meant to be.
Well, literally a month later I missed my period, took the test and it was positive. I was pretty excited and scared at the same time. First I was scared if this one would take or if I would lose this one too. Then I was scared about going through labor without him there. He was amazing during labor with Little L, I couldn't imagine doing it without him.
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| Baby #2 aka Baby E!!!! |
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| Me hugely pregnant with her. She took up all available room. |
Will joked about me getting pregnant before he left and I said heck no! If we already had a kid I would be more open to it, but I don't want to go through my first pregnancy alone!
ReplyDeleteI don't blame you. I don't think I would have done it if it had been my first pregnancy. Also my mother helped me A LOT! I couldn't have done it without her or having M on Skype the whole time!
DeleteI have complete and utter respect for you going through that without your husband. I don't think I could ever in a million years do it without him. Which he knows.. and is trying desperately to get out of. Hahaha.
ReplyDeleteThank you! It was hard, but let me tell you having him there on Skype made it a little better. I could hear his voice through everything and it really helped me. :)
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